What will happen next?

Do you ever feel like life has thrown so many curve balls at you that you just think to yourself, what next?  If you answered yes, START A BLOG. :)  

I always ask in interviews, "what do you think you'll be doing 5 years from now?"  And people usually answer with the most fake answer ever.  If someone where to ask me that today, I would say, "Not sure about that. How about the next 5 days?"  I guess that's bad but unfortunately life isn't linear.  And I'm proud to say that my life is not linear.  Actually, I'm proud and bitter.  Bitter in that I wish I could live a life that wasn't so active, connected and a go-go.  However, it keeps me on my toes and honestly, I'd be bored if I lived in Coppell. 

So here I stand asking the question, what will happen next?  I'm about to turn a very large page in my life and along with that comes doubt, fear, anger, confusion and a period of reflection.  I begin to replay all the good memories and I wonder where we went wrong.  I can tell that these reflections are getting stronger and stronger as the move out day gets closer.  And on the other hand, with this page-turning comes hope, optimism, growth and change.  As I enter my thirties, these qualities sound much more attractive. Hence, the reason for leaving.   But what will happen next?  Will moving on work?  Will letting go heal?  Will I stay in Dallas?  Or will I have an early mid-life crisis and self-destruct?  God, let's hope not.  A gay in a mid-life crisis isn't pretty. 

All I know is that I don't know what will happen. So, I'm going to continue to listen to my intuition.  It has never done me wrong.  It has gotten me this far and hey, I've met Ryan Seacrest so I must be doing something right.